I didn’t realize anything was wrong until it was certain that my world was forever changed. I was on the ground, my left arm and leg were paralyzed, I could barely speak, and the room was spinning. I was having a stroke. I thought I was just being affected by the heat. After all, it was late June, in a warehouse. It was hot.

I couldn’t get up off the floor, not even with help. 911 was called and I was rushed to the ER. I was admitted to the hospital after a quick CT scan confirmed the stroke. Since…

How I found happiness after stroke

When I was told I’d had a stroke, I thought my whole life was being turned upside down. Nothing would ever be the same. I’m fucked, basically.

And while I wasn’t necessarily wrong about my life changing, my perspective was all wrong. I wasn’t fucked, I had an opportunity to start over, to rebuild my life to be the way I wanted.

So I started by taking care of myself. I’m giving my recovery 110%, I’m allowing myself to rest when I need to. I started doing chair yoga and meditation daily. I stopped…

The day after my stroke, I got a phone call from my friend and coworker. I was still in the hospital. I remember telling him that “hopefully I’ll be back to work next week.” Knowing full well I needed to learn how to walk again. Six months later, and I’m still not back to work.

In order to regain the use of my left side, my brain needs to rewire itself to create new pathways around the damaged part. This takes months, maybe years, with thousands of repetitions of exercises, stretches and other techniques (mirror box therapy, electrical stimulation, etc.).

The stroke that changed my life

I didn’t even know anything was wrong until I fell down. My mind was a bit fuzzy and I was a tad off balance, but I attributed that to the heat and the headache I’d been nursing. Then suddenly my left leg stopped working and I fell to the ground. And I couldn’t get back up. I was at work. I had a stroke.

Once it was determined that something was really wrong and it wasn’t just the heat, an ambulance was called and I was rushed to the hospital.

I would have realized…

There’s a fine line sometimes between looking into someone and stalking them. Netflix’s show You takes that line and throws it right out the window.

Joe Goldberg (Penn Badgley. Gossip Girl) manages Mooney’s Bookstore in New York City. Guinevere Beck (Elizabeth Lail, Once Upon a Time) strolls in, looking for books by Paula Fox. Joe is happy to be the best customer service employee he can be and takes her right to where she needs to go.

From her credit card, he gets her name. From her name, he finds her social media, all of which is set to public…

When I’m in a depressive episode, I feel as though nobody cares. I know that’s not the case, but it still feels that way. When I’m depressed, something as small as a loved one not glancing at me when I enter a room or a loved one not returning the smile that was so hard for me to muster can spiral me into destructive thoughts of worthlessness and uselessness.

When I’m in a depressive episode, I am painfully aware of the absence of my loved ones. The logical side of me tells me that most people aren’t aware of my…

I don’t like the word “resolution.” This word means to find a solution to a problem. I’m not a problem that needs fixing. If I make a New Years’ Resolution, it absolutely will not get done. I know this. This is why, at the end of each year, I set goals for the next year.

My goals this year are pretty straight forward, for the most part.

I would like to finish writing my book and self-publish. I would like to read at least 20 new books. I would like to get my weight and my health under control.

Pretty…

The Haunting of Hill House isn’t about a haunted house. No, it’s about the dynamic, emotional relationships between the members of the Crain family. It’s also about the relationships each of them has with themselves, as well as the outside world. It’s about family, mental illness, personal connection, and, yes, ghosts.

Hill House is the most famous haunted house in the United States, per TV show lore. The Crain family’s stay in the house was short lived — and cut abruptly short on one tragic night — but the echoes of the past continue to ripple throughout each of their…

Food waste in the United States is abhorrent. Americans waste 150,000 tons of food on a daily basis. This is equal to one pound of food for every person. On a daily basis. There are two major culprits: supermarkets and everyday consumers.

According to a report from The Guardian, food waste takes a major environmental toll. The discarded food clogs up landfills and releases methane gas into the environment, which is a natural, but powerful greenhouse gas that contributes to global warming.

Not to mention that food waste is costly. Not only is it costing the farming industry money, but…

In a press release sent out this morning, Hunger Free America and Philabundance announced that the hunger rate in Philadelphia has increased by 22% over the last six years. A new report released by the advocacy organization found that, in the 2015–2017 time period, 302,685 Philadelphia residents live in what the federal government considers “food insecure” homes. This is 18.5% of the total population of Philadelphia, which comes to nearly 1 in 5 people.

To expand on that, in the greater Philadelphia area, which includes Southeastern Pennsylvania and parts of Maryland, New Jersey and Delaware, the amount of people in…

Anna Johnston

Lead writer for 9thcircleofhorror.com. Editor-in-Chief of realwomenofgaming.com. Full time Freelance Writer. Broadcaster on Mixer and Twitch (VanriTheRogue).

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